LORD, I REALLY NEED A MAN

I have learnt over the years that the more I strive to be transparent and honest, as I seek for God, the more relevant He becomes in my life. I was a 25 year old awkward adolescent virgin who giggles and blushes when I think about the facts of life. It’s sad to say, that many Christians are still at this stage or, should I say, still living in the dark age. I also strive to make a difference in the lives of others. I realize that I should focus on my spiritual man, but the total man needs growth emotionally, physically, spiritually, socially, mentally and economically. My emotions, body, and every other aspect is vital. I wholeheartedly believe God wants us to embody well-rounded wholeness.


The truth about myself is, even though I’m spirit lead and I’ve yielded my body and mind to Christ, growing up I realized that I had fully functioning sexual organs. At times we can suppress our sexuality as children of God, but there comes a time when we can’t do anything else but acknowledge the FEEL. You feel the loneliness and you feel the sexual desires simultaneously. For some of you, you feel as though it’ll never be fulfilled. I used to also feel like that.

As I approached my 25th birthday, I felt the strong desire to know what true physical and emotional intimacy feels like, within the context of marriage of course. I was turning 25, and it was two weeks before my terrible red sister came back to visit me. How I dreaded her very sure visits, every month, without my invitation.

 

I lived alone at the time, and I remembered lying on my sofa bed, looking up at the ceiling, and talking with God vehemently about sending me my husband. I’ve spoken to Him about this frequently. Truth be told, beloved, in that moment, I bit my lips when I realized how engrossed I was with these sexual, pleasureful feelings I was encounting. (I knew it was my feelings and not my emotions because I was a virgin at the time).

Seriously ladies, The best thing I could do was cry out to Jesus. So, I cried out aloud and said, “Sweet baby Jesus, mother of God, won’t you please help me, PLEASE HELP ME! Would you please send me a man!”
Lol, you can muse on that if you’ve been there. Didnt I say I talk to God about EVERYTHING!? Please, beloved of God, learn to give God more space in your emotions. In fact, I talked with him about it every time I felt that way. One time I tried to joke with God because we’re friends. I told him I knew I few single brothers I could call to help take care of these feelings. But I wouldn’t dare because I know my body is His temple, (1 Corinthians 6:19
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? ) I fear Him, I belong to Him because He’s my covering. I seriously think He laughed at my joke though. That’s my truth. Have any of you ever felt like that?

 

I apologize if I cause you to feel uncomfortable and perhaps concerned, but God is not just relevant for spiritual things.  He made us and not we ourselves, (Paslms 100:3). All of his creation is interrelated. All his creatures have mates designed especially for them. Let me remind you, He knows intimately these struggles that we don’t speak about very often.

Ladies, like I’ve stated above, I know my cycle was close but my body tells me something else was happening. My hormones were driving me up the wall, like the wildebeest, the gazelles and zebra running through the Serengeti in Africa. Did I mention how crazy it drove me, how crazy it made me feel, it was crazy! I find myself ever so often asking the Lord to please help me to combat my strong urges. The older I got the more I realized how my desire for sexual intimacy grew. I was a legal virgin, experiencing a crazy sex drive! What in the world was happening to me? Dear Jesus, what am I supposed to do with my sexual urges if I’m still single? Like I mentioned above, many Christians believe that the sex drive is evil, so they attempt to repress or ignore it. I’m not ashamed to say so because the truth is, this is our design, we’re sexual beings. He knows intimately these struggles we suppress.

 

For years I was mortified by these feelings. The enemy even try to use it against me. I find myself making confession for sexual sins when indeed it was just a natural chemical frequency within my body chemistry. God created you and me with these sexual feelings, with the compulsion to seek out and mate with members of the opposite sex, (I still believe that a man should pursue a women) to enjoy the physical pleasure of sex, and to produce offspring within the context of marriage. He’s fully aware of my faculty. Ignorance is no bliss.

I learnt really late in life that nothing was wrong with my desires for sex, simply because it’s a God thing. I grew up uneducated about sex. You can consider me a dark age girl. Ignorance is no bliss. I grew up with a single mom and not much was said about it in our home. As I young Apostolic Christian girl growing in Jamaica, the talk of sex was always hush hush and appeared always sinful. But it’s not when it’s done in the right context. I used to feel bad two weeks before and after my cycle because I was desiring for sexual intimacy from the opposite sex. I am grateful for The Holy Spirit, my teacher, councilor, and guide who corrected my ignorance and let me know assuredly that absolutely nothing was wrong with me. He ministered to my spirit that day and let me know that everything God created was good and sex is one of that good things God created. Before that encounter, I wouldn’t talk about sex, but would purposefully and intentionally shy away from it. I had a hard time talking about sex until the Lord instructed me that it was a beautiful thing He created.

The Holy Spirit guided my me in the matter. I remember praying all the the time and asking God to take away my feelings. Has anyone ever prayed like me? All I wanted to do was to please God because I thought my sexual feelings were displeasing to him simply because I wasn’t married. Once the Holy Spirit ministered truth to me, through reading and study of the word of God, I realized I was foolish in asking God to take away something ‘good’ that He has done for me like creating my feelings.
I’m glad He loved me enough to not give me the
desires of my heart and instead give me His desires.

 

Dear beloved ones, I don’t know what God has planned for your intimacy. When I realized how much God cared about my sexual feelings/urges, I bared it all before Him. I’d like to say to all of my set-apart Kingdom sisters: unmarried, no prospect of marriage or known interest on the horizon. Those of you who are in relationships that should be heading somewhere but the vehicle is moving slower than a turtle or not moving at all, be of good cheer. Talk to God, be as honest as you can, and bare it all. Talk to him about how you feel, rejection, loss, pain, the need for intimacy. Interact with Him based on your relationship with Him.

The truth is that God love us and wants us to be enriched in His word. Sex is beautiful and is a holy gift, but is it not to be worshipped or perverted. It was only designed for the union of two in a Godly marriage.

 

P.S. Seeking God to send you a husband just to fulfill your sexual needs are not what marriage is all about.

I love you so much, I’m always praying for you.

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Your sis, In Christ💕👸🏽

 

My Overcoming Sisters

I love their lush, rosy cheeks, my beloved sisters. We all share the same smiles and the same mother. What do I love about them…. I love that they love learning, I love that their thirst for knowledge and a better life, changed their entire future.  We all realized how very poor we were. But even while stricken with poverty as it were, poverty didn’t stand a chance to measure or determine our future. It’s quite sad that all our fathers denied us the moment our births were announced. Little girls need their fathers, don’t they? But as Fatherless as we all were, God, our spiritual papa, stood by and covered us. 

Joan, Shelly and Marcia, You came out and from Litchfield and conquered all the obstacle. Many said we wouldn’t amount to anything much, but that’s what they also said abut our Lord Jesus coming out of lowly Nazareth.  ( And Nathanael said unto him, Can there any good thing come out of Nazareth? Philip saith unto him, Come and see) John 1:46. Our mother had tremendous courage to fight for survival in rearing her quiver filled with eight children alone. This fueled our bones with COURAGEOUS FIRE. Her courage and strength left us astonished day by day. One woman was filled with so much love to be willing to bear such a heavy cross alone (She’s the single woman). This reminds me of the Lord Jesus Christ. He was willing to bear the cross for the world because He loved us. (“He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins for righteousness; by whose stripes ye were healed”) 2 Peter 2:24.  All of us went to school barefoot, our lack cannot be numbered, but God was gracious to us. 

Joan, your courage gives me hope. I can never forget when you were the oldest student at your high school, just because you were so determined to change your future and started high when you were in you twenties. Joan, that’s what I called true courage. You graduated from Sam Sharpe Teachers College and Northern Carribbean University with honors and distinctions.

Shelly, you became ill while you were at Mico University College, but that didn’t stop you. You went on to receive your Masters in Special Ed, and you also graduated from Northern Carribbean University  at the top of you class with honor and distinctions.

Marcia, the baby, you followed suit also and earned your Diploma in Teaching from GC Foster Teacher College. You also served as an excellent EMT worker and Nurses Assistant. 

All praises to these awesome teachers who stood against the ODDS of life titled ‘poverty.’  Let me encourage someone to go ahead a give your current situation or circumstances eviction notice. Tell yourself, “I shall arise” and live and declare the destiny the Lord God has prophesied over you. His words declare you shall be the head and not the tail.  You can become anything you put your mind to young people. When you work hard you will achieve. My sisters did it and you can too. Be encourage beloved. 

I love you so much, I’m always praying for you.

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Your sister in Christ.

WOULD YOU STILL MARRY HIM? Part 2

“Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.”
Blessings beloved, I know some of you have been waiting patiently for part two of the bald head man story. Haha! But would you still marry him if he was bald and missing some teeth? So, here we go.

Years ago, a beautiful young lady came to me and shared that someone at work liked her. I knew everyone and couldn’t quite figure out who she was referring to. In my mind, I had a suspicion of who it was but said “No way” to myself. She wasn’t 100% certain about him and here’s why. Truthfully, he was very handsome and got lots of attention from the girls since he was so nice to look at. However, no one wanted to be with him because he had lost a bunch of teeth due to drugs over the years.

Let me tell you the truth ladies. I liked him and thought he was so handsome as well. He had an infectious smile, but once you saw his teeth you’d be like “Oh gosh, what in the world!” No way! Those teeth didn’t match that smile and cute face. Don’t think I’m harsh ladies because if not all, most of you would be skinning up your faces too. Any ways, that part of his life was over, and he just wanted to move on and live a normal life. So, one day my friend walked up to me and asked me what I really thought of him. And so, I quoted something I learnt from my mama. I said to her, “Darling girl, every pot has it’s matching lid.” I never discouraged her. She took it and ran with it. I was a bit shocked when I saw them walk in the next day. Ladies, all I could think of was his teeth, no lie. I was quite surprised when she shared with me that she and him just came from their dental appointment. Ladies, she took him to get his teeth fixed. I will always respect a woman like her.  She said, “Kacey, nothing is wrong with him. He’s a good man, and he has a good heart. He just wants someone to help him.” This reminds me of why God created us women in the first place.
 Genesis 2:18 
And the LORD God said, It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an helpmeet for him.  

So, she FIXED HIM UP! The sad part is, he left home at a young age to make a life for himself and lost his way in the process. How many of you would see past his missing teeth? Again, I want to make myself clear; I’m not encouraging any of you to go marry a bum. If they are working, have a purpose, and potential, don’t just look the other way if you observe a flaw in them.

Have a seat now ladies, this is where the story takes a surprising turn.

The following week, she walked in with a bling of a ring on her finger. I was like wow… girl. All It took for you to get a rock was just to have a bit of faith and a desire to fix a brother up.  Within a few month’s time they were M.A.R.R.I.E.D. One year from that they had a sweet baby.

I lost contact with her for approximately ten years, but then we reconnected. Yes, they’ve been happily married all that time, just incase you were wondering. They’re both entrepreneurs; she believes in his dreams of wanting to own his own business. When we reunited, she shared her story with me right away; how they wanted to move away from New York and in the middle of her move, she questioned her husband about the whereabouts of his folks. She did some research and made contacts and came to find out that her husband had inherited two beautiful homes from his grandmother who loved him very much; One home is on the countryside and the other one in the city.  She also left him a large sum of money in the bank! She had left him with an inheritance he knew nothing about.

My goodness. Somebody pinch me! This is what you call unexpected blessings in abundance. Who would have thought this how the story would end? I bawled tears of joy when she told me about his new-found life. She fell in love and married a toothless prodigal, and after she reunite him with his family, they came to find blessings waiting on the other side.

Sometimes we lose our way just like this young man. God still welcomes us home, cleans us up, and loves us nonetheless. Didn’t He welcome the prodigal in Luke 22?
But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. 24. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So, they began to celebrate.”

We should be very careful how we handle our blessings. Just because the blessing is presented and wrapped differently from what we have preconceived or expected, doesn’t mean it isn’t any good! As we all know, we should never judge a book by its cover.

May God richly bless and keep you, and help you to see how He sees. I pray that He will cause you to see beyond the person standing in front of you and catch a vision of the purpose.

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Your sister in Christ.

WOULD YOU STILL MARRY HIM? Part 1

If God presents him certified bald, or almost bald, would it matter? Truth be told I loved princess D and her son Prince William. Wouldn’t you say he’s a fine man? God blessed lady Catherine who stole your heart. Come on now ladies, don’t be judging me, because we can all agree that the man is fine lol. Seriously now, am I the only one who thinks he’s adorable and cute? I bet lady Catherine didn’t know he would go bald that quickly. However, would she change her mind… Absolutely not!

The Lord brought something to my attention while I was in my ‘waiting season’. He said to meA lot more of my daughters would be married, but they have a preconceived notion, and they’ve put me in a box.” In our language, at times, “we can be too stuck up and picky.” He said to me that some of us ladies tend to look on the man from the outside and never stop to look or consider his heart. I must say, I’m guilty as charged.

Some time ago,  I got some bad news about one of my girlfriends who married a remarkable and handsome man. He ended up cheating on her and then turned and walked away from their marriage. Right away I prayed in my heart and asked the Lord to choose my spouse for me. “For the LORD sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7).

Don’t think I’m any different from you, because I’m not. I like nice things and of course we want the cute guy. However,  it’s always important to know that’s looks aren’t everything. When Samuel went to look for David to anoint him as King over Israel, he would have never chosen David because  of his looks. Remember looks are deceiving and beauty is vain.

My Boaz finally came when I let go of my own will and came down off my high horse. “Sister’s please don’t think I’m saying that you should let your guard down, reverse your standards, or marry an ugly Boaz. “All I’m saying is allow God to choose for you a fine romantic guy.” Yes, I said it. God is the author of love and He writes the best love stories.

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”[Proverbs 3:5-6]

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Your sister in Christ.

 

🌺WORTH THE WAIT🌺

THE WAITING STRUGGLE

 

Two years ago when I attended my sister-in-law’s Melissa’s wedding; in Alabama, I had the opportunity to meet Rhonda Jewel Mckenzie. She was of Melissa’s bridesmaid. Two years later, Melissa returned the same honor as her bridesmaid. As in the case for me, I waited eight long years after I accompanied my two besties Mouya and Ava down aisle as their bridesmaid before I got married. (It felt like foooooooreeeeeeever!)

I was just looking at how beautiful Rhonda appeared in her dress and how she seems so content with her new husband today. Rhonda, Melissa and myself all tied the knot after thirty. It wasn’t easy to arrive at because of doubts, insecurities and the biggest killer of all things beautiful in God’s own time; the big P-PATIENCE.

Melissa’s wedding~

Often, we look at others and compare ourselves, which is not helpful. We get discouraged, jealous, and envious of others blessings sometimes,  not knowing that they had to pay a price for their blessings. I encourage you to wait on God’s timing for your life. God will give you more than the blessings you deserve, just remain faithful. What God has for you, is for *you*. Cry if you must, but don’t doubt that God can provide all your needs according to His riches and Glory.

There are  plenty of scriptures I could apply, but I’ll use only this one. “For the LORD God is a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.” (Psalms 84:11). The word ‘uprightly’ can also mean: appropriately, conscientiously, decently, fairly, honestly, honorably, justly, circumspectly , properly, respectably, righteously, trustworthily, truthfully and faithfully.

Dear ones, this was the scripture that God presented before me, amongst others, during my ‘waiting season.’ I had to do a deliberate routine check and evaluate some things. After a while, I personalized the word ‘uprightly’ into the word ‘love’. Nothing good will the Lord God without from them that love Him.

Yes, I cried into my tea and my pillow sometimes because the wait was a bit hard. Like the time when I finished making my spaghetti noodles and was ready to open my tomato sauce to no avail. 45mins later, I cried out to God, and I said, “Lord I can’t open this jar. I’ve  tried every which-way but Lord if I had a husband I could ask him.” I put the sauce jar down and walked away. Minutes later God told me to try again, and at one turn it clicked-clicked and it opened.  Of course, He reminded me in the same breath that He was first, that, “My Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.” (Isaiah 54:5)

 

Melissa@my-wedding~
My, beloved, I have some of the same struggles like you,  so did Rhonda and Melisa and many others. I want to encourage you to love and enjoy this ‘waiting season’ because it won’t last forever. For those of you, who are believing God for a husband, don’t lose hope. For now, let God be your ‘covering’, let him be your husband maker until He presents your husband ordained.

I fell in love with God and learned how to love him with all my heart, mind, soul, and body. He pursued me and I pursued hard after the things pertaining to His Kingdom. My sweet sisters in waiting, when you seek him first, “The LORD will perfect that which concerneth you: thy mercy, O LORD, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands. (Psalms 138:8) I guarantee you this promise will follow you.

God bless you.
I’m always praying for you my loves
Your sister in Christ💕

God’s Got You!

 

GOD’S GOT YOU!

Whether you’re up or down
Happy or Sad
Rich or Poor
Above the gravity or below the firmament
Weak or Strong
Sorrowful or Joyful
Broken or Whole
Accepted or Rejected
In Chains or Free
Whether all the above is in place or out of place in your life, please know that God’s got you. There is absolutely nothing that’s too hard for God, my friends. I’ve seen Him work the miraculous in my life and the lives of others. Trust me, He can work out anything for you too.

No matter the difficulties you face today, the words of Jesus are stronger than all the troubles in the world. Yes, you can and you will overcome any kind of trouble or difficulty because Jesus said, ‘With God all things are possible’ (Matthew 19:26). It is the power of God that makes what seems impossible with men possible with God.


I remember needing a miracle when I was thirteen. My mother had absolutely no money in her name to afford my passage to school. But I remember going to the Lord in prayer and fasting; through faith, believing God for the impossible.

I only prayed and fasted for approximately five or six hours before I heard the spirit of the Lord ordering my steps to receive what I had prayed for. God provided the money within hours of me asking. He can make a way out of no way. I’ve proven that to be true many a times.

Rest in the peace of your salvation.

Your sister in Christ💕

🌺Jesus Kept & Perserved Me🌺

🌺🙌🏿26 years ago on this day the Lord Jesus filled me with the gift of his Holy Spirit at an old fashion Pentecostal Alter. I’m greatly blessed to be a participant of the Acts 2:38 experience. It’s indeed  one of the most wonderful  life changing experience I’ve ever encountered. Jesus is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  My heart is rejoicing in the God of my salvation.

IMG_6623 I join in with this song writer~

🎶Roll back the curtain of memory now and then,
Show me where you brought me from and
Where i could have been,
Just remember I’m a human and human’s forget,
So remind me, remind me dear Lord.

Nothing good have I done,
To deserve God’s own Son.
I’m not worthy of the scars
In His hands.
Yet he chose the road to Calvary,
To die in my stead.
Why He loved me i can’t understand.🎶

Thank you Jesus for pursuing my me.  Thank Jesus you for coming to visit me in my little house on the hill.

He alone has keep my life and preserved it. Philippians 4:19 
But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Indeed He has.
I love you my sweet Lord!

Young or Old, God is able to keep, preserve  and totally satisfy you.

Psalms 34:8
O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him.

I love you, and I’m always praying for you.

Your sis in Christ💕

🌺GOD LOVES HIS BRIDE🌺

 

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I love, love receiving love from my hubby.💛
My lovely roses from the city. 🌆 Here’s the story. So, I heard a quiet knock on the door🚪and I was a bit startled because I wasn’t expecting anyone.💁🏽I didn’t think it was my husband because he’s usually gets home a bit later. Anyhow, I tippy toe towards the door and ask who it was? Truly, I was expecting my neighbor or someone else to answer but it was only my sweet prince.💁‍♂️ He stood there waiting patiently with this beautiful bouquet of flowers.💐 They are just ordinary day roses really. I thought of God while I trimmed them and placed them in the vase.🌹

The scripture said that husband should love their wives like Christ loves his church. And everyday I experience God’s love emanating from my husband. We are his bride, the church. It’s amazing how in each and everyday, He shows us how much He loves us in all different ways. Truly it pays to wait on God for whatever you need from him. He loves and cares for us and He knows what we have need of. Wait on his timing.⏰His timing concerning every detail of your life is always the perfect timing.⏱⏰

 

your sister in Christ💕

KINGDOMLIVING KINGDOMMIND

🌺HOW AVAILABLE ARE YOU?🌺

🍃I heard a prophetic word at our New Years Eve Service and it still rings in my ears. The Lord said that “He was going to and fro walking in the earth, looking for someone who’s available; to be a vessel He can use. I’m looking for someone who’s available to be my hands and feet.” I cried when I heard it with bitter tears. I had to do a soul search. I asked myself the question.. Am I really available?

The funny thing is most of us have already made our plans for next week, next month, and next year to do what we want. We don’t take into consideration what is on God’s checklist for our life. We need to dedicate our time to Him and make sure we are available. Here I am Lord, AVAILABLE! I am available!  I give myself away to your service, Mighty King whom my soul loveth! Are you AVAILABLE? Can He use you to reach. If He should ask to use your feet today to go somewhere out of the ordinary, would you be available to just go? He’s searching.
🍃🍃I hope this song speak to you🍃🍃

🌺You gave me my hands, to reach out to man , To show him Your love and Your perfect plan, You gave me my ears, I can hear your voice so clear. I can hear the cries of sinners, but can I wipe away their tears.

🌺You gave my voice, to speak Your words
To sing all Your praises, to those who never heard. But with my eyes I see a need for more availablity. I see hearts that have been broken, so many people to be free.

Chorus:
Lord, I’m available to you, my will I give to you
I ‘ll do what you say do, use me Lord.
To show someone the way and enable me to say. My storage is empty and I am available to you.

🌺Now I’m giving back to you, all the tools you gave to me.
My hands, my ears, my voice, my eyes, so You can use them as You please. I have emptied out my cup, so that You can fill it up.
Now I’m free, I just want to be more available to You.

God bless you beloved,
Your sister in Christ💕

🌺IN THE BEGINNING🌺

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God approves of all that he created. He said, ‘It is good’. Many people feel worthless, insecure and of no value. But God did not create rubbish. God created you. He loves you and approves of you. He may not approve of everything you do, but he loves you unconditionally, wholeheartedly and continually.

The pinnacle of his creation was human beings. You are made in the image of God (Gen. v.27). If we want to know what God is like, it is men and women together (‘male and female’, Gen.v.27b) who reflect his image.
Every human being is created in his image and should be treated with dignity, respect and love. Your ability to communicate with God is a reflection of the fact that you are made in his image.
Psalms 139:14🍃 Just a reminder Loviles💕
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

Your sister in Christ💕

🍃KIMGDOMLIVING*KINGDOMMINDSET*SEEKING THE KINGDOM*HOLINESS REPENTANCE*RAPTURE~