THE WAITING STRUGGLE
Two years ago, when I attended my sister-in-law’s Melissa’s wedding; in Alabama, I had the opportunity to meet Rhonda Jewel Mckenzie. She was of Melissa’s bridesmaid. Two years later, Melissa returned the same honor as her bridesmaid. As in the case for me, I waited eight long years after I accompanied my two besties Mouya and Ava down aisle as their bridesmaid before I got married. (It felt like foooooooreeeeeeever!)
I was just looking at how beautiful Rhonda appeared in her dress and how she seems so content with her new husband today. Rhonda, Melissa and myself all tied the knot after thirty. It wasn’t easy to arrive at because of doubts, insecurities and the biggest killer of all things beautiful in God’s own time; the big P-PATIENCE.
Often, we look at others and compare ourselves, which is not helpful. We get discouraged, jealous, and envious of others blessings sometimes, not knowing that they had to pay a price for their blessings. I encourage you to wait on God’s timing for your life. God will give you more than the blessings you deserve, just remain faithful. What God has for you, is for *you*. Cry if you must, but don’t doubt that God can provide all your needs according to His riches and Glory.
There are plenty of scriptures I could apply, but I’ll use only this one. “For the LORD God is a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.” (Psalms 84:11). The word ‘uprightly’ can also mean: appropriately, conscientiously, decently, fairly, honestly, honorably, justly, circumspectly , properly, respectably, righteously, trustworthily, truthfully and faithfully.
Dear ones, this was the scripture that God presented before me, amongst others, during my ‘waiting season.’ I had to do a deliberate routine check and evaluate some things. After a while, I personalized the word ‘uprightly’ into the word ‘love’. Nothing good will the Lord God without from them that love Him.
Yes, I cried into my tea and my pillow sometimes because the wait was a bit hard. Like the time when I finished making my spaghetti noodles and was ready to open my tomato sauce to no avail. 45mins later, I cried out to God, and I said, “Lord I can’t open this jar. I’ve tried every which-way but Lord if I had a husband I could ask him.” I put the sauce jar down and walked away. Minutes later God told me to try again, and at one turn it clicked-clicked and it opened. Of course, He reminded me in the same breath that He was first, that, “My Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.” (Isaiah 54:5)
My, beloved, I have some of the same struggles like you, so did Rhonda and Melisa and many others. I want to encourage you to love and enjoy this ‘waiting season’ because it won’t last forever. For those of you, who are believing God for a husband, don’t lose hope. For now, let God be your ‘covering’, let him be your husband maker until He presents your husband ordained.
I fell in love with God and learned how to love him with all my heart, mind, soul, and body. He pursued me and I pursued hard after the things pertaining to His Kingdom. My sweet sisters in waiting, when you seek him first, “The LORD will perfect that which concerneth you: thy mercy, O LORD, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands. (Psalms 138:8) I guarantee you this promise will follow you.
God bless you.
I’m always praying for you my loves
Your sister in Christ💕